Never finished...

At every point life seems to take me by surprise. Transitioning from one area of life to the next, I never feel more prepared; and I'm not who I expected to be. I'm not disappointed though- I'm not dissatisfied. I have become who I never expected I wanted to be. Grace is a funny thing, and all the while I thought I knew- I thought I knew what grace looked like, felt like. My perspective was so painfully small. But grace proves itself in that while I was still selfish and small-minded and folding in on myself with conceit, it changed me without telling me so. And in the end of one process in many, I have somehow become much better than I ever planned to be. I have no idea how that happened, and what's more, I don't care to know.