Owning the criticism

Interesting that constantly I hear about how Peter was so weak, and then "he was the only one to get out of the boat." Always the encouragement to be the person who "steps out on the water in faith." But I'm wondering why we feel the need to constantly focus on pre-Pentecost Peter and not the fierce warrior who provided leadership to the first organize community and ushered her in to an age without a visual Christ. This dynamic, fearless believer who shows no sign in the Bible of remaining in the limbo between the boat and the water.

So why focus on the early disciples, manufacturing stories that sound endearing toward Peter's naive view of faith, limiting his true power? I think if we have to admit that the disciples were chosen out of the world's forever population, we have to admit that we are in fact the small, childish ones. Not only would I not step out of the boat, I wouldn't have boarded in the first place.

We focus on the perceived flaws of the disciples of Christ so we don't have to face the truth: that out of all the people who ever lived, He chose Judas to mentor over me.